I don’t know if this blog is ever read, and that’s OK. I like having a place to get my thoughts out. If you’re reading, maybe this thought will do to you what it is doing to me…
Yesterday Francis Chan spoke at the closing session of the Youth Pastor’s Summit in Orlando. He had 1 thought to share, 1 thought that was tearing him up personally. He shared it with us, and now I’m torn up, and I’m sure others are deep in thought on this topic. It’s one of those redefining thoughts, something that when considered gives pretty much everything in your world a different tint.
He told the story about a guy in California named Vaughn. He was a youth worker and Christ-follower. Francis has never met Vaughn, but a friend of his said that to be with Vaughn made you feel like you were WITH Jesus. This guy said that after spending a day with Vaughn, he though to himself, “this is probably the closest thing I’ve ever experienced to being with Jesus…”
Francis heard that statement from his friend a number of years ago, and it’s never left him. Lately, he’s been redefining and re-examining all the things he does in his life in the light of the question… “do people say that being w/ Francis is the closest they’ve ever come to being with Jesus?” He thinks not!
I can do lots of good things for students, I can minister to families, I can preach excellent and powerful sermons and never be in danger of resembling Jesus that much. We can learn to do things, and accomplish things we set our minds to and never be Christ to someone. Francis Chan said, “you can be a best-selling author and sought after conference speaker and not really be like Jesus…” He would know.
All I know, is that I too want to be like Jesus. I fear that all my hopes and aspirations and former definitions of “success” in ministry are now lying in the ditch on the side of the road and in their place I have one goal… BE LIKE JESUS!
That seems like a pretty obvious goal, shouldn’t we all want to be like Jesus? Yes, we should, but I no longer want to “look” like I’m being like Jesus. I want people to hang out with me and leave and say, “man, the love/peace/forgiveness/patience/hope I feel when I’m with Greenaway makes me feel like I’ve been w/ Jesus!”
I guess my real fear resides in how well I know myself, and how un-Christ-like I really am, everyday, all day long. I’m not just sort of not like Christ, I’m really not like him. Where there should be love, I have anger. Where there should be patience, I have annoyance. You get the idea. I guess it shouldn’t really scare me that much, b/c no one has a shot at being like Jesus apart from His help.
I was raised, like many of you, to believe that if I did certain things and didn’t do other things, that was what it meant to be a Christian. It’s more. It has to be more. Like Francis Chan, I have to read my Bible and then look at life and think, there has to be more to life. Where are the miracles, where is my faith to see miracles, where are the dead rising, where is the church that so loves that NO ONE has need of anything?
Jesus, I want to be like you. Not for my glory or fame, but for yours!